|the last one
November 14th, 2006
This is the last entry.
I started this lj business three years ago and now that i realize.
I was desparate for attention.
But I found peace in myself. So I thought it would be sort of meaningless
to have people read my journal.
I don't even keep a real journal anymore.
I am going to try my hardest to achieve my life time goal
and that's a life that is good enough for me.
So all you livejournalist people..um
I know life may seem meanginless and full of lies at times
but if I can find peace in this world,
I know you can too.
if you still want to talk to me
my email is email@example.com
and www.myspace.com/mylastflight ..thats my music
but if you are a serial killer, dont talk to me
because i like life alot right now and i think its worth while to see whats at the end.
November 7th, 2006
Life is good.
hot chocolate is good.
music is fun.
northfield ghost hunters 2006
if you know any haunted places let me know.
its been a while,
i should stop this lj thing.
March 9th, 2006
Bye-bye to high-school.
September 23rd, 2005
not everyone gets money from there parents, maybe be a little more considerate for those who do work and such for their money. you're really vague here and it almost make me upset you think this way about alot of people. there are alot of kids in your situation. you're not the only one.
Normaly, I'd aplogize about this
But not right now, if this one the first time I'd be okay with it but it's been too long, it's been two years. please be upset over it or whatever suits you.
I didn't say everyone does, I didn't mean to offend anyone and if you want to say something about it, at least leave a name so I can tell you what I meant by the last update, because you completely missed the point.
September 23rd, 2005
I dislike Mr. Duncan and the PVRS soccer team alot. Not that I hate them or anythin but,
jst because I'm not playing soccer, that does not mean I don't want to play anymore. I have something to do. You want the reason? Alright, I'll give it to you, I don't have money for college. No money, I am not rich like you assholes, and I want to do this with my own money unlike you guys, relying on your parents to pay for everything, you bitches why the fuck don't you go through what am I going through right now and see if you can keep up with it. ANd yet, you give me a dumbass excuse so I'd play. "You could get a scholarship by playing soccer!" oh well that's great, that's not what I want to do. I want to get a scholarship for me studying, trying hard and all that. I don't want to get free money just because I can run fast or whatever. I want to become an elementary school teacher and you kind of have to be smart at it, goddamnit. To add to it, people who work hard and study hard should get scholarships, not people who can fucking throw the football the furthest. I do not hate them, I want them to do well at what they are trying to accomplish, that is for sure. But blaming for it and making me feel guilty for it would not change the fact that they tied the game that they should have won. It's a team sport.
But anyways, other than that, my life is great.
I am TAing (Teacher's Assitance) 7th grade English class and 11th grade History class and I am doing well on all the classes.
Also, I am still working on my full-length CD, I have enough songs. I will go record all of my aocustic songs for the CD and I'll just have to wait until the studio has free time for me to record full band songs. This is one of my biggest goal this year, to complete my CD. Also I am working two jobs now. So I am quite busy these days, I am trying to look for weekend job as well. And you shoudl go to the PVRS Variety Show this year because Reed, Jimmy, Eli and I are doing a song. It is going to be hilarious, don't miss it.
Anyways, I think that's enough for now.
I am going to study now, Because I am nerd.
Bye : )
September 17th, 2005
ugh today i watched mean girls and ate ice cream
I think I am turning gay?
but other than that I hung out with Jimmy and Reed and it was great.
I start my otehr job thursday
Now,I am going to watch "Unfortunate Events" and "Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind"
Have a good night everyone.
and also tonight, I am the luckiest person for realizing that I am surrounded by people who I love.
Life is great, no matter how poor it looks, it turns out great.
So if I ever feel sad, I can tell myself that I living not only for myself but people who helped me out to become who I am now.
September 13th, 2005
it's been so long.
How are you?
Tell you the truth, I don't feel too swell
But I might get well, when the time comes.
Sept 21st I am playing at People's Pint in Greenfield MA so if anyones wants to come, talk to me about it.
and Oct 7th or something at Chester VT.
I am doing very well in school so far, it feels much better but it doesn't make me feel smarter.
I got job at BJ's which is a very good thing.
Now I can start saving up for million things that I want.
Like small recording system/prog., Car, college, and for the trip to Japan.
Does anyone know how to convert Ripped music into mp3s?
I need a help on thaaat one..
ah, I am le tired.
September 5th, 2005
ah i havn't updated in so long.
I am swell.
This weekend was rather fun.
I went up to Reed's house with Jimmy to film more of our movie thing.
Eli and Chris were supposed to be there but nope, they couldn't make it.
So maybe next time, we were pretty disappointed about it but we decided to go swimming and other stuff and we got ourselves busy for a while, and next day we woke up around 10:30, took a shower, ate food and at 3pm I had to go down to Greenfield for a job interview at BJs hahaha, on wed. the manager dude is going to call my house back to tell me if I got the job or not. I hope. I hope I got it. So far this yea, (I kow it's only beel ike two days but..) I am very motivated for school. I actually want to do well and such. yes yes..its good its good taht I am feeling like this..
Life is great so far except one thing that's bothering me but I am not worrying too much about it.
Hope you all had bonne-weekend
August 31st, 2005
Hi, how are you?
I am doing well.
Today was an alright day.
I got my scheduled they decided to put me on Music Theory Class when I told them
I'll take that my Senior year but thats okay.
and they put me on to global science too
i wanted to take physics. I am switching these classes
as soon as I can.
Tomorrow I am going to Reed's hosue it should be fun : )
and then work.
and i might get a job at BJs hahahahaha
they called my house so yeah
thats about it for meow.
|making some changes.
August 30th, 2005
I dont like people who are NOT responsible.
Today Santina Jimmy and I were supposed to hang out with Lena since shes leaving in two days or something to Ireland and not coming back until next summer.
But they decided to be lame.
It really pissed me off. I don't usually get pissed off.
Well I picked Lena up we went to the hadley mall, she baught herself some clothes
we went to wendeys and yeah.
we hung out. It was good, I wanted everyone to come so she would have something to remember when she goes back to Ireland but they really fucked up on this one.
They just don't know how much it sucks moving to a different country.
These days I've been realizing things alot, most of it, makes me upset when I think about it.
So I try not to.
and Fall comes again, yes, its a soccer season
Them annoying soccer coaches and players will start bugging me why I am not playing anymore.
Even my friends paernts or MY paernts do.
Which is frustrating.
I told them that I don't want to play anymore
I just don't
I'd rather be working and getting money.
I am not here to fucking please everyone besides I am not alright thesedays.
yeah tell you the truth I am pretty fucking pissed off about myself I am not going to get into thedetails or anything.
My passive agressivenes is kicking my ass : )
But on the brightside, school is starting soon.
I dont know why I am excited about it. I am going crazy or soemthing.
This year I really want to study and get good grades.
So I decided I might not do AIM and Myspace anymore.
Ill justh ave My Music Myspace and livejournal.
thats enough I gues
and if people want to talk to me
they can call me or email me.
..yeah good idea.
Starting tomorrow I won't be on AIM. : )
So basicaly I just need few changes in my life
but not THAT big of a change.
I am happy with what I have, I am very thankful of people in my life.
August 29th, 2005
how are you guys doing?
I am doing well. but i had a bad dream again.
It was about me movig back to Japan.
I honestly would hate to move back to Japan
I know it's a country that i was born and grew up in adn all. but
I have great friends here and changing thigns would make me very upset.
But in my dream lsat night, it did happen. It felt very real like the dream i had yesterday.
I went to the school there, they were very racist towards me and i had a hard time getting accepted like I did, when i was young. I don't know, it's very hard to explain. You sort of had to be there to get it. Its all because of racial, cultural, mental and physical differences. It's weird.
I woke up
Picked my sister at her friends
and went to NHM gill campus, the postoffice and to winchester NH with my mom.
and around 6pm i left my house for work.
and I also go my songs from yesterday
it turned out to be shitty
I have to re-do them
Out of 5 one sounded "alright"
But I am going to re-do them anwyays.
It was just test recording and stuff.
but if you want to hear it just IM me at Hayato0001 and I will send it to you through AIM.
Tomorrow JImmy and i are hanging out with Lena.
since she has to go back to Ireland soon : (
The next day is schoool...
friday i have a show in Chester VT.
Sat and Sun at Reed's house.
Monday is just Devin's relaxing day.
yyup im out for meow.
schedule that I am trying to get for this yearrr.
Eng11 A and B
American History 2 and 3
Two study halls a day/ gym on fridays
August 28th, 2005
So I slept over at Reed's hosue and I am going to the same again tonight after
us fimling more of our moviething.
yeah i had the sickest dream...
have you ever seen that movie..what isit.. ithink its called
"The saw" or something..
it was sort of like that.
I was captured by this guy in this garage or basement or whatever i forgot.
and there was a guy chained on a pole he couldn't escape..and i was too.
And the Mr. Killer guy would come in every 10 mins or so and cut our wrists with sharp knives, stab our backs with fruit cutting knifes and skined us and stuff..ah god it was horrible..
i was pretty scared but i some how escaped ha...i hope this doesnt in my dream ever again..
anyway, in the morning i went back home took a shower and recorded 3 songs at Christopher Worth's house.. yup i might put one song on to myspace so you guys can listen to it..
and i went back to Reed's house and filmed some parts for our movie
and then Chris and Eli came and filmed some more..
and yeah..now we're going to sleep meow..
i think i'll be back tomorrow
August 27th, 2005
Life is great : )
August 26th, 2005
1. First best friend: Makoto Saitou
3. First screen name: Hayato0001
4. First pet: a hamster.
1. Last cigarette: hmm about 9 or 10 years ago?
2. Last good cry: Good cry? hmm i don't know.
3. Last beverage drank: Orange Soda.
4. Last food: Pizza
5. Last phone call: w/ Steve.
1. Who is your best friend: Reed Sisson and Jimmy Bridges.
2. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend: I have two boyfriends Max Johl and Conor Oberst
1. Where are your favorite places to shop: somewhere cheap..iuno..
2. Favorite item of clothing: pants? shirts? thongs?
1. Do you do drugs: alot. i need to stop...noooo way man.
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: ah suave? or whatever?
3. What are you most scared of: Moths Butterflies ocean river and being alone in the dark?
4. What would you change about yourself: hm A. to have a perfect american accent? haha B. i wanna be smaart thatd be nice... C. and more. bit all in all i like who I am.
1. Colors: Green/black
2. Foods: Japanese/Chinese Food
3. Subject study hall...
4. Animals: Sea Otters/Cats/Cows/ Smart dogs
5. Sports: Baseball & Soccer.
HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given anyone a bath: Probably have but iuno..hahahahah
2. Smoked: yeah. but i dont do that stuff now.
3. Made yourself throw-up: yeah i have, cuz i felt sick and such...
4. Skinny dipped: I think so, i hope so.
5. Been in love: Nope, but close to one..I think. iuno
1. Clothes: boxers..yup.
2. Music: nothing right now but was lisetning to Building A Factory
|watermelons in winter time.
August 25th, 2005
Hi everyone, how are you?
I am doing alright.
I hung out with Melissa yesterday with Jimmeh.
It tooks us two hrs to get there cuz i decided to believe what mapquest told me
rather then beleive what melissa said. yup stupid idea hahah
oh well it was very fun.
also i got The Garden state from her. and ive wached it. its great
its a great movie. and today
i hung out with Nichelle, Amanda and Timmy at Subway today.
It was fun.
I want to get a job there.
it'd be cute.
Tomorrow I have to work.
yup i dont get paid though
school is starting soon
I cannot wait.
A year left
and we will be seniors
beforewe know it, we will be graduation college and such
I am feeling old these days.
haha thats probably not good
but its just telling myself taht i should have more fun while i can.
Things are not going too well for me, or just in my head or whatever the hell it is.
But i won't complain, i am not saying things are completely bad either.
I am thankful for what I have.
I think i had a good day
I think I should just leave it at that.
and tomorrow, I will accomplish more like Benjamin Franklin says. : )
Have a great night everyone.
August 20th, 2005
i can't sleeep
i am not doing well thesedays
feels like something is missing.
but oh well
today was a full moon
it was great.
i had a tiring day
except rosanna, santina,lena, jensi (ithink), rachael,reed,stuart, jimmy and I hung out
played hide and go seek haha it was fun
it still felt like iuno
and ihave something that i am worry about that i dont want to talk about but meah
maybe im just having abad week.
August 20th, 2005
So this past twodays
I couldnt really sleep
I think I had total of what 7~8 hrs of sleep
Because my allergies been really kicking my ass.
But last night I was able to sleep for a bit about 5 mins.
and I had the shittiest dream ever.
In that 5mins, I dreamt about Blink`182 music video
now that sucks, wasting my dream for somethins shitty like that.
and it was about Jimmy Reed And I argue over that music video
Reed:"no way Devin that video gotta be at lesat 3 mins"
Jimmy: "Blinkd 182 all the way!"
Me: "Reed, it's more like 2mins, fine let's watch it and find out"
and we watched it, and I woke up
now it's 6:30am
we're leaving soon to this place.
we are going to Northfield media arts cafe to hang out with
Rachael, Santina and Lena
We hanv't saw 'em in so long, it'd be nice to see them again.
also before Lena going home to Ireland in 15 days or so, so yeah.
It should be fun.
When this thing is done, I am going straight to bed.
If i can sleep
August 18th, 2005
I forget things too much
oh well. i will try harder to remember
A Rabbit and A Crab were there tonight.
But they were upside down.
I saw a lady too.
August 17th, 2005
Going to the hadley mall with Jimmeh and Reed on friday
Hanging out with Santina, Rachael, Reed and Jimmy on saturday.
I miss Hanna, we need to hang out.
I've been writing alot lately
I think I have enough songs to start recording.
Tom said he will play drums and keys for my live shows :)
which is awesome
haha does anyone know someone who plays slide guitar and banjo?
haha i need one. or i can try to teach it to myself.
But things are loooking gooood
I am having fun with my summer.
I've grown tired of holding this pose.
I feel more like a stranger each time I come home.
So I'm making a deal with the devils of fame,
Saying "Let me walk away, please"
August 12th, 2005
I got my lisence : )